Talking To God
This article here made me think of my beliefs, and I realized that I haven’t really posted on them recently. If you have an open mind and you’re not easily offended, you should definitely read it, it’s a fictional piece, but quite thought provoking. There isn’t much that I agree with, but this particular article here has a lot of valid points. I think everyone should read it.
Now, coming to my own beliefs, I believe in God. But not in the same way as you do, and not just because I want to be different, it’s just how it is. I was raised Muslim, and took to the usual practices of fasting and prayers etc. There was a time when I would pray all five times, and make up for the ones I missed. There was a time when I’d seek God’s help for all my troubles. There was a time when I’d burst into tears after praying, kneeling down on the floor, begging for forgiveness, searching for a way out. But that time is no more, I hardly do any of that anymore.
I’m not an atheist, by any means, I believe in SOME superior force, I just like to call it God. But what is God? Is it really a separate being? Or is it just us?
I believe God is simply a way of perceiving ourselves on a grand scale. God is simply a way of looking at all of us at once, as one collective whole, one collective consciousness, just… One. What if that is all we are? Just one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively and selectively? Bill Hicks, a comedian, said that. It doesn’t sound very laughable to me, comedians are usually the ones who understand best. It’s only because they understand that they can laugh at it, it’s only because we don’t understand that we argue.
So what if God is just one consciousness, pretending to be a man, woman, boy, girl, cat, dog, tree, or ant? What if the universe is simply God’s playground? The sun, the stars, the moon, all just playthings? What if God is in a bullet, a grenade, or a nuclear warhead? What if God is in the rain, the sky, the sea? If God is everywhere, why can’t this be?
We as humans clearly haven’t grasped the concept of God well enough, because if we had, we would have all agreed on it by now, and had a laugh over it. But then again, there are a lot of stupid people. Actually, when you think about it, the majority is always stupid. So why is it that we always go by the majority vote? It is only a select few, a minority that is intelligent. They are the ones that lead, that revolutionize, that invent, and discover. And yet, they must rely on the majority’s consensus. What does that say about us?
If God really is a separate entity he must be laughing his ass off. Here we are, the blind leading the blind, stumbling into shit, falling on our faces, trying to please this God, so he’ll allow us into his Kingdom. Why would he want idiots fumbling about in his Kingdom? If he did choose any of us, would he take the most virtuous, or the most intelligent? Don’t you think God would want an intelligent conversation? A challenge perhaps? Not just some fool stuck to his feet all the time. What reason does God have to love? Or to love unconditionally, even? Fine, so he created us, and you love what you create. But what if your creation goes against your will, and destroys itself? Can you still feel love for such a thing? Or just regret?
I don’t know much about love, and I don’t know much about God, but I know what I believe. We are all one, as much as you might think that you are different, unique, or “special”, you’re not. You are just one perception, one way of seeing things, just an actor on a stage reading out your lines, except you don’t see the script, but you play along, the lines come naturally. And I am the same. And God? Well, we already discussed that didn’t we. God is me. God is you. God is us. God is them. God is everywhere. God is everything.